sweetcniowa

Well...this is my first blog on this.  I don't know who's going to read this.  Today's been hectic.  See, I'm engaged to a man who has two kids, a girl who is 7 and a boy who is 5.  This morning his son got a hold of something my daughter made me for Mother's Day and tore it up.  I was upset so I took something he made at day care and tore that up.  I asked him how he felt and he said he was sad, so I tore it again and asked him how he felt.  He said he was mad.  So I told him that's how I felt when he destroyed what his "sister" made me.  I then explained to him that everything they all make I want to save because they are only going to be that age once and stuff they make especially for Mother's Day is very special to me.  I hope he learned his lesson.  We've been having problems with him getting into things he's not suppose to be getting into and no matter how high up we put stuff he still gets to them.  I'm at my wits end and I don't know what to do.  No punishments work.  Time-outs don't work, spanking does but I hate to spank.  I guess we'll just ride this phase in his life and hope we don't come out too soaked...get it?  Like a wave...LOL!

Ok, I'm dumb.

Another thing that's on my mind.  Yesterday I was folding towels and in the load was a pair of underwear that aren't mine.  I went to see my mom about a month ago and before I left I had sorted out the clothes, towels with towels, etc.  I didn't see those underwear in there.  I just added to the towels a few days ago so I didn't notice them then.  When I threw them in the wash I grabbed a few at a time so I didn't notice them.  I'm thinking my fiancee cheated on me and the only times I could think is when I was in New Mexico with my mom or the 8th when I was at the Taylor Swift concert.  I haven't asked him about them yet, I will when the kids go to bed.  But if I do find out he did cheat on me I don't know what I'm going to do.  I love his kids like they are my own...their real mom is worthless...she only gets two visits a week and she's not capable of taking care of them.  If I leave him, that means I leave the kids and I can't do that.  I just won't trust him ever again.  I've been cheated on in past relationships and so I'm used to it.

Any advice?